I've come to the realization that I have to change my lifestyle if I want to lose weight and maintain that loss. In the past I saw no problem with ordering pizza and chasing it with ice cream every Friday night. After all...it was the weekend. In the back of my mind, I knew it was unhealthy but I didn't care. It was easy and it tasted great. But the time has come to make some real life changes. I'm not even going to pretend that I'll never have pizza and ice cream again (because I will) but it should be and will be done in moderation. Making grilled pizza with homemade dough is quite different than ordering calzones from Bertuccis. And grabbing soft serve while visiting friends is not the same as keeping a gallon of mint cookie ice cream in the freezer (even if it is slow churned).
I am a very all or nothing type of person. In the past when I've made attempts to lose weight, I would severely restrict calories and spend every second of my free time working out. I quickly became obsessed and it was all I could think about.
When I started One Thirty Six I began counting calories and measuring portions. I honestly had no idea how many calories I was actually eating. But like many times in the past, I quickly became obsessed. I was neurotic about weighing my food to make sure that I was eating exactly 56g of grapes. But here is what I've realized: while losing weight has to be a priority for me right now, I cannot allow it to take over my life. I should not cancel social engagements because I am anxious about what I will eat. I need to be smart, educate myself on what is healthy, plan ahead and make good choices. And when I stumble and eat a pint of coffee Haagen-Dazs in two days, I don't need to beat myself up and get discouraged. Instead I need to acknowledge that it's probably too early in my journey to keep ice cream in the freezer.
It's all about finding a balance. A balance between enjoying food and eating for nourishment. I'm sure that over time my idea of balance will change but for now these are the loose guidelines I will be following:
* Protein, fruit, veggies, and water every day. No exceptions.
* Exercise at least 3 times a week for 30 minutes.
* One pasta meal a week. (I could eat pasta every day for the rest of my life.)
* One cheat meal a week. (We'll see if this is valuable or detrimental.)